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Gahhh, work work work! I got so much to do -- school projects, fanfics to research about and write, money to save, subjects to study, sketches to do, etc. etc. O_O

But then -- what the heck! Here I am writing in this blog as if I had nothing to do in the world. LOL!

Anyhoo, back to work! Work, work, work!

*Sigh*

My heart is bleeding. I denied it front of him, but deep inside my heart is bleeding. I hate it that my heart is bleeding, for I have promised myself not to feel pain in the first place.

He has found the girl he wishes to share his heart with. I feel happy for him, but deep inside I wish I did not exist. I know that I will never ever have him, but then it's hard to see the truth that hurts.

I need to forget. I need to show my Anbu side. It's the only way to live.

Whewhewhew!!!

I thought I was never going to log in here again. I forgot my username LOL.
Anyway, this is it for now. Had a not-so-good vacation. Check out why in http://www.tabulas.com/~anbu_charlotte

Hmm... I'm considering in entering the WoE again... should I be a gm or should I join another guild? The road to high level and dex 99 is still sooo far away >.<

Whole in My Pocket

Yeah, that's right! I don't have money right now /swt ... or to be exact, I don't know if I have any money right now coz I still have to buy a ferry ticket for me to go home to my province.

I believe that this is the worst Christmas I've had so far. I don't have anything to give to those I care about, not even my parents. My debts have reached my neck, and I still have a lot of unfinished businesses lying about me. My electric fan in my room isn't working, and I have a lot of projects in my hands.

I think I need a break >___________<

Dum-di-di-dumm... *yawn*

I've made a part of the fanfic. Trent and Orphy are chasing after me right now with a pair of scissors and a huge axe at hand *lol* Well... it's my fault, actually. Tinopak kasi ako, naalala ko kasi sina Yusuke and Kuwabara dun sa anime na Yu Yu Hakusho.

Oh, before I forgot, I was able to make a tabulas. :D http://www.tabulas.com/~Anbu_Charlotte/ Problem is, I don't know how to do html stuff, wahhh >.<>.<

Ayan, back to work back to work!!!

..............

I've finally done it. Nakausap ko na bf ko... I told him I wanted freedom... I told him na kelangan ko muna mapag-isa, to think on things and reorient myself, to realign all my emotions in their right positions.

Only thing is... nakonsensya ako... my bf had been so good to me until the end. Kahit kagabi naintindihan nya ako, di man lang sya nagwala... >_________<

I broke my heart... I broke my heart because I had been unfair to my bf and now it has come to this point... I broke my heart because on the other hand I could never be together with the one I love for it was, in the end, a one-sided affair...

I am alone now... I can no longer be the old Cha... I must now be reborn... be part of the shadows once more... be an Anbu once gain.

This is how an anbu may look like... 

A New Chapter

It's a new chapter of my life, alright. It's been sometime since I made my guild's website, but I've always been thinking of making a webbie for myself. A friend of mine, however, suggested that I make a personal blog -- so here it is...